[It's a plain envelope, unadorned but for Ford's name on the front.]
Hey Ford,
This is probably a huge mistake and I'm almost definitely going to regret it, but you know how Trench is. Better this than getting set on fire or chopping myself into bits on your doorstep or something fucked up like that.
Anyway it's totally fair if you just end up burning this and not dealing with it, but if you do bother to read the whole thing: 1) sorry in advance 2) thanks, owe you one.
Oz will never admit it in another couple thousand years, and he'll probably kick my ass for doing this -- hell, I'd kick my own ass if I could -- but I know he misses you. He keeps doing that thing he used to when he was stressed out in Remnant where he'd just quietly stare out his window and barely notice anyone else coming in, and you already know this place is practically retirement for us.
Part of it might be his new powers -- he's mentioned having gotten help from you before, but I know it's complicated, and he never asks us even though I wish he would. [that bit is AGGRESSIVELY scratched out]
For what it's worth, he does know he fucked up really bad. I think that's why he's so fucked up about it, because he was probably the happiest I've ever seen him when you guys were together, and I've known him since I was seventeen. And I know it's hard to even think about giving him another chance as long as he doesn't take the first step to apologize properly, but I think he's terrified to try to meet you halfway because he doesn't think you'd want to see him there. I don't think that's true, and if it is just tell me to fuck off and we can pretend this never happened, but if it isn't
I just wanna say I get it. When I first got to Deerington I thought I never wanted to see his face again, and when I did I almost punched him in it. He'd lied to me too, for decades. He abandoned us when we needed him the most. But he's changed, I swear. He kept a promise that he could've easily broken and I wouldn't have even blamed him for it, knowing how long he'd been trapped living without escape. He was honest with me when he went back home to the war and everything got worse, even though he could've lied about it like before and I wouldn't have known any better.
He's really trying. I think he's gotten it into his head that the way to make up for what he did is just to leave you alone forever, even though I've told him he should really just apologize already and see what actually happens. Last time we talked, he basically left it on an "I'll think about it if there's ever an opportunity", which in Oz-speak is more like, "I think I would actually literally become a squid on the spot if I had to be that vulnerable and he doesn't want me back", which I think is kind of a dumbass move because it's only gonna get harder the longer you guys don't talk about it.
Anyway, I'm not really sure where I'm going with this. I guess, if you've still got feelings for him and you're open to hearing him out sometime, you know where to find us.
a letter...left by birb on his windowsill when it's left open at some point.
Hey Ford,
This is probably a huge mistake and I'm almost definitely going to regret it, but you know how Trench is. Better this than getting set on fire or chopping myself into bits on your doorstep or something fucked up like that.
Anyway it's totally fair if you just end up burning this and not dealing with it, but if you do bother to read the whole thing: 1) sorry in advance 2) thanks, owe you one.
Oz will never admit it in another couple thousand years, and he'll probably kick my ass for doing this -- hell, I'd kick my own ass if I could -- but I know he misses you. He keeps doing that thing he used to when he was stressed out in Remnant where he'd just quietly stare out his window and barely notice anyone else coming in, and you already know this place is practically retirement for us.
Part of it might be his new powers -- he's mentioned having gotten help from you before, but I know it's complicated, and he never asks us
even though I wish he would.[that bit is AGGRESSIVELY scratched out]For what it's worth, he does know he fucked up really bad. I think that's why he's so fucked up about it, because he was probably the happiest I've ever seen him when you guys were together, and I've known him since I was seventeen. And I know it's hard to even think about giving him another chance as long as he doesn't take the first step to apologize properly, but I think he's terrified to try to meet you halfway because he doesn't think you'd want to see him there. I don't think that's true, and if it is just tell me to fuck off and we can pretend this never happened, but if it isn't
I just wanna say I get it. When I first got to Deerington I thought I never wanted to see his face again, and when I did I almost punched him in it. He'd lied to me too, for decades. He abandoned us when we needed him the most. But he's changed, I swear. He kept a promise that he could've easily broken and I wouldn't have even blamed him for it, knowing how long he'd been trapped living without escape. He was honest with me when he went back home to the war and everything got worse, even though he could've lied about it like before and I wouldn't have known any better.
He's really trying. I think he's gotten it into his head that the way to make up for what he did is just to leave you alone forever, even though I've told him he should really just apologize already and see what actually happens. Last time we talked, he basically left it on an "I'll think about it if there's ever an opportunity", which in Oz-speak is more like, "I think I would actually literally become a squid on the spot if I had to be that vulnerable and he doesn't want me back", which I think is kind of a dumbass move because it's only gonna get harder the longer you guys don't talk about it.
Anyway, I'm not really sure where I'm going with this. I guess, if you've still got feelings for him and you're open to hearing him out sometime, you know where to find us.
~Q